If there is anything that I have learned post-graduation and from Ariana Grande, it is to say “Thank you, next!” and move on. On social media, I recently expressed how happy I was that I was offered my very first internship and how proud I was for not giving up when times got hard. Shortly after, that door closed and at first I felt very defeated. On a gloomy afternoon on my hour and a half commute to New York, I received an email that basically said the company decided to move forward with other candidates. So many questions ran through my mind. What did I do wrong? What could I have done to prevent this? Why does this company no longer want me to work for them? What did the other candidates bring to the table that I didn’t? I could feel myself starting to cry, but a voice inside my head said “Don’t you dare start crying”, so I stopped myself, pulled out my laptop, and applied to other internships nonstop for the rest of my commute into The City.
I refused to sit and feel sorry for myself when there is a world full of opportunities. In my first Lifestyle post, I stated how my mother always instilled in me “What’s for you will always be for you”. The older I get, the more I see that in fruition and my anxiety is at ease because I know it simply means that I have more blessings coming my way. Every experience in life is a learning lesson and has a purpose. I am learning to put my anxiety to rest and to become resilient and patient. I am transitioning into womanhood and I really like who I am becoming. At the end of the day, that is what really matters. When doors shut, don’t try to re-open them. Don’t try to use other keys when the one you earned doesn’t work. Keep walking down the hall and knocking on doors. One is bound to open.
XOXO,
Brenda Reddon
Beautifully written Ash, I’m so proud of the young lady you become keep doing what you love to do and be great at it!🥰🙏🏽🙌🙏🏽🙌