If there is anything that I have learned post-graduation and from Ariana Grande, it is to say “Thank you, next!” and move on. On social media, I recently expressed how happy I was that I was offered my very first internship and how proud I was for not giving up when times got hard. Shortly after, that door closed and at first I felt very defeated. On a gloomy afternoon on my hour and a half commute to New York, I received an email that basically said the company decided to move forward with other candidates. So many questions ran through my mind. What did I do wrong? What could I have done to prevent this? Why does this company no longer want me to work for them? What did the other candidates bring to the table that I didn’t? I could feel myself starting to cry, but a voice inside my head said “Don’t you dare start crying”, so I stopped myself, pulled out my laptop, and applied to other internships nonstop for the rest of my commute into The City.
I refused to sit and feel sorry for myself when there is a world full of opportunities. In my first Lifestyle post, I stated how my mother always instilled in me “What’s for you will always be for you”. The older I get, the more I see that in fruition and my anxiety is at ease because I know it simply means that I have more blessings coming my way. Every experience in life is a learning lesson and has a purpose. I am learning to put my anxiety to rest and to become resilient and patient. I am transitioning into womanhood and I really like who I am becoming. At the end of the day, that is what really matters. When doors shut, don’t try to re-open them. Don’t try to use other keys when the one you earned doesn’t work. Keep walking down the hall and knocking on doors. One is bound to open.